Avalon

I shall breathe again...

Saturday, September 18, 2004

For the past few months I feel I have totally screwed up my whole lifestyle and messsed up my physical clockwork so that I was living on such a hectic schedule I promise that I hardly had time to do some serious studying. While most people don't believe my confession of such authenticity and genuineness, others are simply shut away in their rooms buried under piles of textbooks, notes and tutorials.

Well but then who do I have to blame for but myself. I was so blinded by a moment's folly so that I was thick and moronic enough to step into that stifling audition room. I guess somehow I got so tantalised about MAF (Oh... MAF!! I..It...It's MAF!)on that fateful day I disregarded the coo, warning voice at the back of my head (No u dope don't get in just go straight HOME) and instead embraced the blockheaded, obtuse idiot hiding in the shadows. I guess he must have came out for a stroll.) I was sooooo numskulled I think even a bullet could not have portruded that skull of mine. What was I DOING?? Ya ok shall stop dwelling on the subject. Seriously it would have been quite interesting... if there were no such thing as promos.

And tomorrow will be the day I will be set free, from the Pei Chun CIP project as well. Ok it is not as though I don't like it but it is honestly great responsibility to take on a bunch of kids hand-picked and chosen by their teachers as potential chinese authors-of-the-future. So any incompetence and incapacity will not be tolerated, at least by my standards. So while I was happy I could be doing something for my alma mata, what in chinese is called 饮水思源, but I was and still am (until tomorrow, hopefully) under tremendous stress of disappointing myself, tarnishing the HC LEP reputation and letting down of my primary school. Ya I may sound just a bit too serious but well, this is my expectation. The minimum requirements. My principles. So luckily the feedback from the students are (so far) that they enjoyed it. Well I must say they are really a good class. But when the principal called to hint at the obvious request of continuing these classes today, I feel like fainting. Quoted from one member who particpated,"We shall do if they provide us with the notes and curriculum." Well you heard it we have to plan the whole entire project all by ourselves. Not a small feat eh. And that friend of mine only prepared for one lesson. (We do in groups) I was the overall organiser. So well... what can I say. Not trying to act noble or what but I think I really need some air. I am feeding on carbon dioxide right at this point in time.

I guess I can finally breathe after all these things are over... (Oh please be)

Envoy of the Stars @ 1:04 AM
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