Even a worm

Monday, September 28, 2009

怎么办怎么办。又想从不安中逃遁，钻入苟且滋长的温床。

“其实你已经很成功了。成功学会走路、说话、正常思考、展示喜怒哀乐... ...” 真的，已经不简单了。只是，我们追求着复杂，然后等着被吞噬。

吞噬我的，不知是黎明前的黑暗，还是明天正午的太阳。

挣扎若是活着的证明，滥情就是孤单豢养的病。

只是，“一寸的小虫，也有五分的魂魄。”不能被夺走的，不是生命，而是尊严。

Envoy of the Stars @ 2:22 AM
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陈伟联《分手的情书》Chen Wei Lian - Fen shou de qing shu MV

听着他的声音他的歌，像是赶搭上了一天之中最后一趟列车。迟来的福至心灵，打散了不同波长，徒留一片白色。

Envoy of the Stars @ 2:20 AM
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上邪

Friday, September 25, 2009

要失陷在几次错对
才开始懂得自由发挥

要怎样的速度
才能把后悔追回

要经历几番望穿秋水
才能对美有所体会

要靠多少财富积累
才能买通世界上的伤悲

要出卖占有谁
方能达到肉体上的快慰

要把自己搞得多累
才能悠然入睡

要从什么高度俯眺
才能给成功定位

要几张赞不绝口的嘴
才能大声说出自己的品味

要弯着越来越有弧度的背
只为背负几个天下之最

要用几个字
形容属于自己的一切

要在什么样的夜晚酒醉
惹出胡言乱语一堆

注：题目的“邪”读作爷而非鞋音。予尚未入邪，仅是醉眼叹上邪。

Envoy of the Stars @ 10:43 PM
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Duel

Thursday, September 24, 2009

The imminent face-off lies ahead...

I shall get my lightsaber ready too...

Picture courtesy of http://www.animalswithlightsabers.com/

Envoy of the Stars @ 1:58 AM
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又圆了的约

Sunday, September 20, 2009

仿佛每年，
我们看同一片天，
想象着将来有多遥远。
慢慢地，
也会变得很熟练
尽管以后转瞬成了从前

可不可以不要怀念
怀念每一个小细节
这样或许不会那么纠结
纠结在永远说不完的离别
不管有否察觉
是月圆还是月缺
只记得又圆了一个约

每个人都在寻找着对自己有价值的东西，重复复习同时也间接成全了自我和他人。不管是唱着歌、乱打着拍子、忘我舞动着手脚的自己、还是身旁的那个人。

离开了一个地方四处飘泊后，情感的游牧民族再次聚首，不再意犹未尽地细说从头，只是很纯粹地打发念旧的问候，以彼此的笑容作为压轴。有些执着有价值，就看可以执着多久。

2004

2005

2006

2007

2008

2009

Envoy of the Stars @ 12:23 AM
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And the life of man, solitary, poor, nasty, brutish and short..

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

If habituation breeds emotional numbing, at times I do fall into a certain state I have come to term 'social ambivalence'. Too much automaticity in daily life, following a tad too many pre-scripted procedures, intricately matched role patterns, well-contrived alliances built upon utilitarian foundations. Everyone gathers in a place but are never quite there. The clock ticks by but each person runs on a different time. The dosage of stimulation that can bring one back from a state of comatose hardly arrives, and when it comes disguised as 'sake of argument' it merely gives rise to constructed artifice and empty bubbles.

A voice mimicking mine reverberates within the confines of my mind, like some ominously repressed ghosts of the past rising from the distant shadows. "What we are doing, feed on dreams." Others and our own. For the attainment of well-taught, vaguely conceived goals, these dreams we amass then devour without much thought or discretion, only mediated by some form of delayed empathy and occasional pangs of conscience. I fear the dissipation of courage to manufacture enough of those dreams to fuel ever-growing ambitions, and this alternative energy shortage crisis looms ahead.

And sure enough, a faint 'pop' sound goes off in the distance.

Nature and constructs, the light and the dark.
You see a line and I see an endless arc.

Envoy of the Stars @ 11:29 PM
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そんあの大人になりたくない

Saturday, September 12, 2009

步行在熟悉的乌节，身旁是熟悉的朋友，心中却突然闪过奇怪的念头。可能是看着衣装笔挺，面带倦容的白领族；可能是准备午夜狂欢，浓妆艳抹的女郎。我只是想：再过几年，是不是就会穿梭在这些人当中呢？ 现在的我，应该不会对不起五年前的我吧。

我想对于一些冠冕堂皇的成人lifestyle，我还是不明白。或许是没能力明白；或许是不想明白；或许是没能力明白导致不想明白，抑或倒过来。我没多大兴趣探讨这之间的连带关系correlation。举个例子：昂贵的健身房会员费。始终无法了解喜欢到gym跑跑步机的人的心理。每次看到在健身房大楼的玻璃窗前有一排人在跑步机上挥汗的情景，很抱歉，我只想到养着白老鼠的笼子。我可以理解这种lifestyle，只是很难苟同。同样喜欢跑步的我，觉得环境非常能影响跑步的乐趣。所以，我更喜欢在邻里跑步，呼吸自认不是很新鲜但也差不到哪里的空气，看一些有生命力但也不至于激发什么夸张生命热忱的景色。尽管有时会重复：如一些喜欢在灯火阑珊处缠绵悱恻的男女、总是在同个时间溜三条狗的那个大叔。这些景物因为不能供我选择，所以反而更能欣赏它的自然。这样的生活可能不符合那个“lifestyle”的定义，但论吃香喝辣，我口味淡，要我吃，我也吃不消。

脑中播放着适才吃饭时隔壁一桌熟女OL的对话，内容细节不详，也不太想记得，大致就是谈到月底买了几个LV，然后羡慕别人拥有更高的薪金一类。

悄悄提早和五年后的自己说好：不想成为那样的大人。

Envoy of the Stars @ 11:20 PM
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但愿仍长久

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

2009年9月9日。

中国的九是个至阳的极数，代表了最多、无限。

数字让许多事物在量或值上有了定位，但其实它的存在也只是种象征。终究不过是人与人之间协调好的表达方式。或许，也是个予人表达的机会。

尽管人不能长久，情却能纵贯千秋。但愿持续保存好的情缘，不断写着明天的你我，不是走到一个极限，而是一个无穷。

Envoy of the Stars @ 10:29 PM
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SMAP - そっと きゅっと [HQ] 2009 PV (Sotto Kyutto)

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

一直觉得SMAP不该只让人记得木村拓哉。至少我本身很支持草薙剛和中居正広。而林志玲的客串演出也让人惊艳，果然美女就是美女，回眸一笑百媚生。

この歌が心も清めることができるし、素敵らしい。皆もSMAPが好きなら、応援して下さい。

Envoy of the Stars @ 2:19 AM
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MLTR - It's Gonna Make Sense

Monday, September 07, 2009

In my opinion, one of the best bands there is out there. This is from their latest album "Eternity". MLTR forever!!

Lyrics:
Life comes in many shapes
You think you know what you got
Untill it changes

And life will take you high and low
You gotta learn how to walk
And then which way to go

Every choice you make
When you're lost
Every step you take
Has it's cause

Chorus:
After you clear your eyes
You'll see the light
Somewhere in the darkness
After the rain has gone
You'll feel the sun comes
And though it seems your sorrow never ends
Someday it's gonna make sense

Tears you she'd are all the same
When you laughed 'till you cried
Or broken down in pain

All the hours you have spent in the past
Worrying about
A thing that didn't last

Everything you saw
Played a part
In everything you are
In your heart

Chorus:
After you clear your eyes
You'll see the light
Somewhere in the darkness
After the rain has gone
You'll feel the sun comes
And though it seems your sorrow never ends
Someday it's gonna make sense

Release:
Someday you're gonna find the answers
To all the things you've become and all they've done
At your expence
Someday it's gonna make sense

Envoy of the Stars @ 12:41 AM
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Two cents on movies

Saturday, September 05, 2009

After a prolonged hiatus, I have decided to pen down my thoughts about a few thought-inspiring movies I have watched recently, or maybe not so recently, depending on one's interpretation of the word.

First up is "The proposal" which was supposed to be a rather neatly packaged, couple-ensnaring romantic comedy, not unlike its predecessors like "He's just not that into you", "The Holiday" yada yada, you get the idea, except that I watched it with 2 other guys which makes it a rather weird proposal to watch "The proposal" in the first place. But nonetheless, being a long-time supporter of American humour, I would say the crunchy bits hit the right buttons and to top it up and earn itself the title of 'romantic comedy', there is the overused plot of having two seemingly impossible couple get together and after a few intimate moments that never fails to include some magical rediscovery of each other and predestined dispositions to be mutually attracted, they got together. Yeah.. all so sweet, and predictable.

All very well conceived, if not for the cliches here and there and plot derivatives that create too much of a deja vu. But if the movie scores a saving grace, it has got to be the marvellous onscreen chemistry between Ryan Reynolds and Sandra Bullock. Reynolds delivered a charming performance and his charisma shines throughout the show. Bullock is ever convincing and comfortable in her role as the stern and unyielding boss who slowly loosens up in her private moments. Another plus point of the movie will be the Alaskan scenery that is extensively depicted in the film, making one wonder just how much the tourism board is pumping into the movie budget. But if that were the case, I would say the objective has been met because I forsee Alaska will probably be topping the Honeymooon lists of many.

Rarely does a project idea that started out as a short film gets developed exponentially into a Peter Jackson blockbuster. Except this is a blockbuster that requires some brain work. So if you have been rooting for 'Transformers', you might want to rethink your options. Yet another matter of concern will be the amount of gore and blood spill that might create discomfort, so this is not for the weak-hearted, or the ill-prepared.

A synopsis of the story will probably give the story away so just having the idea that it is centred about relationships between aliens and humans although vastly different from the likes of "Aliens versus Predators". The alien discrimination so inexplicably expounded on in the film makes it hard for one not to relate it to racial bias and apartheid policies in South Africa. The director took pains to craft out emotionally gripping and visually impactful moments throughout the show, especially during the second half of it, when the tempo starts to pick up. But the key message in the show would be the need for understanding.

Understanding is probably a concept so well-known yet so underplayed. Perhaps we all find it easier to forcefully impose our way instead of talking things through.

Envoy of the Stars @ 10:01 PM
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陶喆 - 你的歌 (2009最新大碟-69樂章)

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

期待他的音乐，是一种对自己的考验。怕他变，怕我变。一直喜欢着他歌曲中的旋律，带着一点放荡不羁，抒情曲却又单纯而有力。

我觉得，我还是喜欢这样的陶喆。

Envoy of the Stars @ 1:20 AM
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