可爱

Sunday, September 28, 2008

我有一群可爱的朋友，常常会谈些正经又不是很正经，轻浮却又不是很轻浮的话题。可爱的是，我们天南地北地聊，常常会不知所谓，论点也不知道在哪里，但我们就是这样可以轮流讲几个钟头。但说到可爱，我觉得这个词本身就很“可爱”：可以爱。

或许世间的事就是这样，找到它可爱的地方，情感就会自然而然地来。当然，也没有人会强迫你去觉得一样东西或一个人可爱，这是一种有待发掘的原动力。所以，找“可爱”的东西是种生活必然。

Envoy of the Stars @ 2:21 AM
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如果这就是爱

虽说情人眼里出西施，但同一双眼睛怎么又容不下一粒沙子？

古人自然爱得也不很单纯，但今人却爱得太过复杂。太过用力，渴望浪漫却追求实际，对爱探讨得太深刻 (what is love?) 最后变成一门剪不断，理还乱的哲学，却忘了它的根本其实在自然中。

张信哲唱到爱是一种信仰，我想可能比较贴近信念。

Envoy of the Stars @ 1:56 AM
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认真地学

Monday, September 22, 2008

我笑说我之前在初院有三个课外活动，现在依然死性不改，同样有三个。周围的人不信，明明就连迎新会都没去，也整天看我闲闲没事做就呆在msn，哪里像是大忙人。

不过我还真的有。我不定期地自我组织跑步活动，每周至少一次，活动频率多寡完全依照心情，会员包括所有住我这个地区的人们，不用作记录，不用故意安排，遇到谁都是必然。另外，就是音乐赏鉴，弹琴听唱，也是随意所致，随时皆可。最后，我每周三次从事儿童辅导，这是较专业的名称，实际上就是陪一个小鬼玩耍、猜透他一个又一个把戏、通过各种方法诱他读书。当然，值得庆幸的是，这不是义工。

最后这个课外活动也时不时给了我意外的惊喜。小鬼总是蹦蹦跳跳，活像猴子，但居然会有语出惊人的时候。像一次，他就说了：“你怎么看起来那么stressed？你以前不是‘酱’的咯。”我当然语气淡然地问他那我以前是怎样的。“你以前没读书（是还没进大学）比较好玩，（天啊，我变玩具了！）不会骂我，不然你不要去读书好了。”（才怪！以前就有了，可见对你一点效果也没有。）因为我认真。“你为什么‘酱’认真？”因为我有责任把你教好。说完，我就变成了沉默玩具。

心里的OS不停放送，但我不禁想，这小鬼，虽然还是懒散，好玩，爱说些有的没的，也不是很有礼貌，但居然偶尔还是蛮好笑的。也不知是他太傻太天真，还是我太呆太认真。

“为什么你这么喜欢读书？为什么你这么喜欢要我读书？”他继续发问，对于生字以外的问题，他有足以杀死世界上任何不幸被他看到的猫的好奇心。唉，算了，路漫漫兮其修远兮，吾将上下以求索。

我暗想：这样吧，我们都认真地学，学我们彼此看不到的东西。

虽然如此，但不要误会了，我对儿童心理学可是敬而远之的。

Envoy of the Stars @ 3:42 PM
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Relativity

Music moves the soul and heals the world. It seems that many accept this rather emotive figure of speech, but apparently the world isn't healing from the ailments it has been plagued with, or maybe it isn't recovering fast enough, many souls that have been watered by music are still fragmented and some are sold.

Some people dwell on the past, some try to retain the current, and some endeavour the best tomorrows. Each party obviously thinks their pursuit is 'for the best'. The past holds unlocked but forgotten treasures, the current has valuable discoveries worth clinging onto, and the future holds the tempting unknown. But when one's dream is fulfilled, another's crushed. Dreams are but a romanticising of desires. Who has the audacity to dream then?

An escapist though I may be, I recognise the world's orbit. I am just immersed in my rhapsody, and orchestrating my requiem. Thoughts are powerful, but ephemeral as well. Probably, any reflected here will disappear with the dawn of tomorrow..

Envoy of the Stars @ 1:17 AM
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アンジェラ・アキ - 手紙 ～拝啓 十五の君へ～ (PV)

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Love this song. Another great singer- Angela Aki. Just listen to her.

"Letter.For me who's 15 year old"

Dear you,
Who’s reading this letter
Where are you and what are you doing now?

For me who’s 15 years old
There are seeds of worries I can’t tell anyone

If it’s a letter addressed to my future self,
Surely I can confide truely to myself

Now, it seems that I’m about to be defeated and cry
For someone who’s seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?
This one-and-only heart has been broken so many times
In the midst of this pain, I live the present

Dear you,
Thank you
I have something to tell the 15-year-old you

If you continue asking what and where you should be going
You’ll be able to see the answer

The rough seas of youth may be tough
But row your boat of dreams on
Towards the shores of tomorrow

Now, please don’t be defeated and please don’t shed a tear
During these times when you’re seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice
For me as an adult, there are sleepless nights when I’m hurt
But I’m living the bittersweet present

There’s meaning to everything in life
So build your dreams without fear
Keep on believing

Seems like I’m about to be defeated and cry
For someone who’s seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?

Please don’t be defeated and please don’t shed a tear
During these times when you’re seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice

No matter era we’re in
There’s no running away from sorrow
So show your smile, and go on living the present
Go on living the present

Dear you,
Who’s reading this letter
I wish you happiness

Envoy of the Stars @ 2:47 AM
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偶感

Thursday, September 18, 2008

能者多劳，所以若你享受着较有些人多一份闲暇，不用置疑自己是否没用，但也不要总是投诉能者的强势或唠叨，因为劳心者治人，劳力者受制于人。不是我说的，这是交换原则。

斯文或温顺，如果有被发现是面具的一天，不该谴责抱怨，退一步想，这又难道不是自己的一厢情愿？

虽谓“未知生，焉知死”，但无需杞人忧天地对死过分推敲，却要对死有一份觉悟，才能对生多一份感悟。生死若是各安天命，那活着就是活出自我。

Envoy of the Stars @ 1:49 AM
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Once in a full moon

Monday, September 15, 2008

The moon is exceptionally bright tonight. It reminded me that another 15 days have passed. It reminded me that the moon's cycle is still renewed every 15 days but we seem to be heading down a linear path. You don't see such captivating full moons every 15 days either.

Great I stopped to appreciate the beauty.

Envoy of the Stars @ 10:57 PM
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追逐

Saturday, September 13, 2008

我看到了一支蝴蝶

绚烂夺目

翩翩起舞

不知不觉

我也跟着它窜上窜下

紧盯着

翅膀摆动的频率

步伐出奇自然协调

像是经过无数次耳提面命

好几次的向前扑去

去扣一把美丽握在手里

总像水中捞月般差之毫厘

它越飞越高我却越追越累

直到逃出了视线所及

而蝴蝶的模样霎时忘记

Envoy of the Stars @ 4:26 PM
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情景题

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

情景一


有些东西是不错，但可惜，不是我那杯柠檬茶。

情景二




我不相信“天地之间，物各有主”，但有一份自觉，就知道不是你的不能拿。这就是善于运用的省略号。

Envoy of the Stars @ 11:07 PM
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旧雨

Sunday, September 07, 2008

华灯初上秋雨至，韶光错落

火树栉比簇拥，一夜撼动

人景交融多年后，语声荡城楼

满院三五成群，倒数过往中

不知不觉，第五年了。有些东西，是习惯，但有些习惯，需要恒心和那潜伏的情怀。昨夜雨疏风骤，吹不散旧雨邂逅。

感动留在心底，感动流在心里。

Envoy of the Stars @ 1:24 AM
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Alone

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Disclaimer: No this is not an emotional post. Don't be misled just because of the title although it is believed that people are more receptive to words carrying emotion.

People come and go,
heavy burdens a show.
Light-hearted smiles soar aloft
dream features so soft

Another face among the many
Queuing up to welcome the frenzy
searching for separate tomorrows
with voices strangely hollow

Still we marvel at how time pass
the lack of seasons tell no task.
Hope is a neverending chase
through a thicket of haze

The sky is vast
our common blues last
In uncertainty a pact extends to us
a ride of friendship a trial for trust

只身立西楼
飘雨成帘幕
欲揭却步，来事几回误
瞻前路，烟水茫茫。
掷把残存疏狂，洗尽前朝苍凉，
轻舟简行任天涯。
参差万户登云梯，
蟾宫我独近。
千金浮名纵堆集，
不会王侯会子期

I was just reading on the Deck (Arts Canteen) when it started to rain and I just felt like writing something. So there.

Envoy of the Stars @ 1:47 AM
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关于“一口玉弓思归送”

屈指一算，用了三、四年的名号，至今只有少于十人问过我到底是何意思。令我感动惊讶的是，其中多是与我不甚相熟的，但他们的眼尖和参杂几成好奇成分的提问让我在每一次解说时都乐此不疲。今天就来个简单明了的解说。

一口玉弓思归送。

其实就是我的名字改编成的一个词句。口玉为国，弓厶得弘，厶念si1，这里以“思”取其音，再串成短句，即一口玉弓思归送，意旨：将思念之情，归真之心，以一口玉弓射出，就是一种传送。由此写出的一些拙作，其实也就是要做到这点。

Envoy of the Stars @ 12:56 AM
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