天方.夜谈

Saturday, June 30, 2007

“你这两年好像学到很多。”

“看得出来?”

“从你讲的话。”

“还好。我只是想从中找到那点意思。”

“我只是想离开。”

“都是身不由己。”

“但你选择把握,我选择错过。”

“错过也是一种美。”

Envoy of the Stars @ 11:19 AM
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昨日的一缕英魂,今日的万里长城... ...

Saturday, June 23, 2007

正在翻阅《人性的陷阱-武将篇》,第一章就讲述了楚汉相争中最终不敌命运捉弄,天时不济的悲剧性英雄项羽的成败。

项羽英雄了得,功勋卓著,霸气冲天,一人之下,万人之上,最后仍然赢不了天意。无论多么强大的人物,在“天”的面前,可谓沧海一粟。所以,也只能留下个为后世所唏嘘的悲壮故事,以及那英雄末路的挽歌:

《垓下歌》

“力拔山兮气盖世。时不利兮骓不逝。骓不逝兮可奈何!虞兮虞兮奈若何!”

纵有力拔山河的豪气,时不予我,胯下之良驹也已不能向前行进,陷入绝境无法自拔,只好徒唤“奈何”。而对于与之东征西讨的挚爱虞,也就只能在无限哀伤中吐出心中的惘然:“虞啊,虞啊,我把你怎么办呢?”

引人凄怆的史诗,不都尽是英雄折翼,挥别美人,慷慨赴死的诗章吗?

胡彦斌有首《葬英雄》,歌词用来凭吊《霸王别姬》,项羽乌江自刎那一幕实在贴切:

“这三尺黄土够不够埋你一世骂名
生死约定
真爱难寻
是多情是无情
拿命来证明
人会变情难尽
谎言很公平
这三尺黄土
能不能葬你霸业雄心
物换星移
这青史谁来留名
不要恨生不逢时
天要灭你轮回早已注定”

最近跟一个人偶然闲谈时,提到英雄造时势,乱世出英雄。有人说英雄应运而生,然换个角度,英雄的出现,是为了救劫,不也就意味着他们同样是应劫而生?所以当那人问我,这一生真的只是想平凡地过,做个普通的平凡人时,我好不犹豫的说:是。如果为了一鸣惊人,满足雁过留声,人死留名的欲望而徒增杀戮,一劲使风云色变,都只为了贪个一世英名,我宁愿普普通通这样过。宁被看成胸无大志,只为不让烽火燃,虽说乱世一直都存在着,但能不乱上加乱,使这混沌更混,多少总是好的。只恨世上不能人人手握橄榄枝。

普普通通地,只从历史中体会那兵戈天地,戎马生涯,悠悠闲闲地以楚汉骄雄的豪迈、悲壮,体验一下英雄的热血热泪,英雄的惊天动地。

Envoy of the Stars @ 11:32 PM
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Rediscovering

Roamed half the island today. That may be an exaggeration, but the truth is, I definitely covered alot of local ground.

First I walked around half of Orchard Road and went to places I seldom go to like Far East Plaza and the shopping mall opposite it. I can't help but notice that the clothes and accessories sold in certain shops did not differ much from those I saw in taiwan shops. Once again this reaffirmed my resolve that I should just concentrate more on the sights and scenery in the countries that I visit in the future. These are after all, things I can't bring back or find back at home.

After that, Karl and I met up in Bugis and hunted for his mp4 at Sim Lim, before going down to North Bridge Centre to collect the wu xia novels I ordered at the World Book Fair. We headed down to Raffles Place, checking out the queue for donuts before having tea and coffee at Ya Kun Kaya, watching the random drips and draps of passers-by stream past us as we sipped our drinks.

We proceeded to look for a place for dinner after Aaron joined in. As usual, settling down for dinner was always a painful and long journey. We had to tour around Marina, walk a big round around Millenia Plaza, (sighting some random art pieces being displayed there, being so out of place) and Suntec, only to GO BACK MARINA and finally decide on Subway. I guess earning our dinner never sounded more appropriate.

Having relatively filled our stomachs, we decided to continue on to Chinatown to have supper. In the end, we explored the whole of Chinatown, identifying the more "tourist-y" places there and acting like a tourist while looking closely at the stalls selling different varieties of souvenirs there. We even took a lift to the top of an HDB flat beside Tanjong Pagar Road for a breathtaking, panoramic view of Chinatown that stretches out to the CBD.

As though our Chinatown expedition was not enough, we travelled to Little India where we visited Mustafa Centre. I must admit this is my first time there and I was definitely impressed with the vast amount of goods available there. We were saying that the places we visited in Singapore today were so not-Singapore.

Of course, in the end, we never had supper, only bought an Ice Teh Tarik from "Mr Teh Tarik", a shop in Far East Square. Sheesh, begin in Far East, end up in Far East. So much for the beginning is the end.

Envoy of the Stars @ 1:18 AM
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Back-pack, back-track

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Realised it's the first time I missed typing an entry on 16 june.. But before I start on my latest ROC expedition, shall first give some shoutouts to the following lovely people who are kind enough to remember. Sorry if I did not reply to you guys but each of your well wishes definitely made my day memorable.

In order of time then: (de ja vu feeling because I distinctly remember doing something like that two years ago) Mum, Zhiqi, Sis, Hueysun junior-turning-senior, Xuefen, Kane, Kaiyun, Yong En, Jing, Cousin San jie, Huiyun, Sihan, Dad, Denise, Xinyu, Jasmine and Jias. (Jas and jias it's better late than never so thanks so much!)

I do remember that this isn't the first time I spent my birthday overseas, the last time was when I went Yunnan with my family way back. Age is catching up really fast indeed. But I guess 20 marks the end of the second decade of my life and also a start of the third. Spent the first few hours of my birthday in a club trying not to look too bored. There are people in my group who frequents such places after all and they even paid quite abit to treat us some drinks. Toasts were made to me in more considerable amounts, most fortunately. My impression of clubs have not changed one bit. The stench of acrid smoke still puts me off and the loud volume of the music definitely took a toll on my ears. Even after I left with a few from our group (we left first because we had enough... and to think I had to attend to two of them who were feeling abit shaky from drinking too much) I could still hear a ringing sound reverbrating in my ears. But I guess it's one of the birthday experiences you won't get too often. At least in my case, this is a first and the last.

Before I proceed to my account, I must backtrack abit to the part when we first landed in Taipei Airport. Here I must really recommend you guys who wish to go to Taiwan to go for free and easy if you can. What I really enjoyed during these few days was the freedom to do whatever you want and roam around wherever you want, finding things out from people (taxi drivers especially, shall elaborate later) and venturing to unknown places. So we were fetched to the Paradise Hotel we booked in advance in yes... a posh, black BMW. It's one of those limo services available in airport. The cost is reasonable because it was divided among us and we calculated the cost of a normal taxi will be about the same too, so why not travel in comfort. The BMW was really cool, it had a gps system, mini tv and the funny thing is these cars in Taipei have this device that will warn them whenever they are nearing any road cameras... Highly suspect it is due to the fact the drivers there like to do Initial-D like driving on the roads. No kidding this driver of the BMW actually drove onto the Chevron linings at the side of the road. (Licensed drivers will know what I mean) There was a bit of a slight confusion because the driver did not know much english and we only had the english name of the hotel. It was only after seeking help from the tourist service line that we found out the address and name of the hotel in chinese.

The second surprise in line for us was when we reached our long-awaited hotel which on a side note, is very near Xi Men Ding. Initially we booked three rooms but the hotelier offered us their presidential suite that could house all 8 of us in exchange for those three rooms, absorbing the extra charges and all. Hmm BMW and presidential suite. Quite a good start for a holiday indeed.


My Room 2107...

The hotel lobby. I simply love the Victorian style.

Taipei people are really one of a kind. From taxi drivers to business men to teenage couples... they just look very "tai". One taxi driver was telling me something about 台北人. “台北人就是这个样子,什么都差不多。驾车也一样,那么乱来。但也因为人有逃避的本能,所以在路上都能你照顾我,我照顾你。”What he said really summed up the people's culture 人文 of Taipei quite well. Like one of my friends Boo said in his blog, there is order among the chaos over there, which is in stark contrast to the chaos among order structure over here in Singapore. They queue up to enter their Metro (our MRT) even though there aren't any demarcated lines. (Unlike some people I see in Singapore, disregarding the yellow boxes even during peak hours and squeezing their way into the carriage even before the people inside have finished filing out) And you can't help noticing that although the motorists in Taipei like to do drifting stunts you see only in movies and appear to treat the roads like Daytona race tracks, they will really look out for people who are crossing, even jaywalkers... And to them, green lights or red lights are never taken for granted, meaning it can be green light for the drivers but they will still take extra note of any pedestrians who may try to cross and vice versa. I myself have experienced motor bikes zooming past me even when the pedestrian light was flashing green. Taxi drivers wise, I think we have met enough taxi drivers during our short stay over there, because we just couldn't resist the convenience of sharing cabs from place to place, but we limit such luxury to once a day, or only when we have alot to carry. Some taxidrivers are really friendly, trying to explain this and that, some will just drive quietly while listening to their Hokkien radio channel, some will appear cool and intellectual, some will try to put on an english slang and add in some english words in their sentences to hopefully make an impact (I notice they like to use the words "you understand", "always" and those individual english terms.)

As for the younger generation there, they dress up really well, good enough to make a lasting first impression. The guys there have this tendancy to style their hair in more or less the same way, keeping an almost similar fringe and long hair that reaches to their shoulders. The girls tend to wear makeup everywhere, and I mean EVERYWHERE they go. Even night markets where you have to squeeze in crowds and such. Roughly 7 out of 10 will spot long, straight hair with doll-like fringes (think Rainy Yang) and they seem to be greatly influenced by japanese school culture too. I see young girls dressed in gothic sense roaming around the streets of Xi Men Ding. Many often comment that Taiwanese girls look very pretty and hot. I guess there is some truth to it. The fact is there is at least one pretty salesgirl in each clothes shop, be it Xi Men Ding or Shilin Night Market. I wonder what will happen to the average looking female who is trying to look for a temp job... Looks really count quite alot over there, or at least appearance does. By appearance it means how you dress. Taiwanese must really have alot of time to put so much effort into their daily appearance, especially the females. How much do they have to spend on cosmetics if they rely so much on it on a daily basis?! And they do have a very, very fair complexion, females and males alike. The 8 of us looked as though we were African chinese when we stand next to them, and the fact that we were casually and sloppily clad in slippers, t-shirt and shorts did not help at all. We were getting weird glances when we were walking around Xi Men Ding at night.

Think I should just let the pictures do the talking. (with a little narration):






And tadah... theres the toilet at the train station... all along just in front of us, within clear line of sight.. But I was contemplating taking a shot of the toilet but there were just too many people going in and out and it definitely seems Weird with a capital W if a person is taking pictures outside a toilet.. But anyway the point is Taipei is just such an interesting place... they like to measure distances alot..
A blur image of the streets of Xi Men Ding I purposely took through the windows on the fourth level of a KFC outlet (yes their KFC actually has got 4 whole stories to itself)



Two pictures of the same Xi Men Station. One early at 4.30am (yes the sky lights up really early) and the other at around 1pm.

Obviously this is the 101 tower, and the two hearts you see on the building, it is a service open to dating couples who want to tell the world that they are about to be married. A couple can ask to show the lighted-up words " I DO" on the tower, for a price of course. According to a taxi driver, its about 3 million dollars, for the duration of roughly one week, for three letters.. Talk about playground for the rich.
Ok I know it's abit act cool but we took pictures of us doing this same pose wearing this shirt for a purpose. Don't get it? Never mind.
“浪子回头”听过吗?

Nice right? This is one of my favourite pictures I took for this trip. These were pasted on a stretch of wall in along one of the streets in 淡水. The bright colours definitely caught my attention but it took a bit of time to get this shot because there was a huge crowd of people by passing.

Group shot in 淡水. I realise how hard it is for a group of guys to ask for help from passers-by to take a group photo.


A shot I took in 北投公园. Relaxed people, relaxing environment. The two people in the foreground are chatting while behind them, a model is doing a shoot, probably for a magazine. The guy sitting on the grass patch has a camera with him. And in case you wonder why I am actually doing picture description over here, it's just I am afraid you can't see clearly because the picture is too small.


Haha yes... we actually went singing during the wee hours for the last day. The ktv lounge there really rocks.. better than any outlets we have here. There's even an inhouse toilet in every room. And the past midnight rates are reasonable, less than S$25 dollars per person.



Just had to take down this special remote control in the ktv lounge. It has options like 走音救星、合唱、唐老鸭声音、欢呼声、红磡体育场、歌剧院、浴室、隧道 that allow you to sound really funny, make your voice sharper or deeper and such.

Can really come in handy when you are almost singing to the brink of over-exhaustion. But the funny thing is 8 out of 10 of the english songs we chose could not be shown. So we turned to the more popular K-songs and of course, Jay Chou....




Yes I know this looks like just a normal shirt but the size is actually as large as my palm. It is actually just a T-shirt that is folded, compressed and packaged into the shape of a T-shirt. (I hope this sounds logical) So if you want to wear it you will have to tear out the package and what you will get is just a very crumpled and creased shirt. But I like the design picture.

The last time I went to Taiwan was during LEP immersion and the whole lot of us knew Shilin Night market like the back of our palm by the end of the trip. So this time my group explored almost every part of Xi Men Ding and by the last day, we have finished looking through each shop at least once. This time around, I went back to a few places I visited two plus years back. I see very little changes. Shilin very much looks the same to me. Danshui is just as beautiful and vibrant. 蚵仔面线、鸡排、鲁肉饭、蚵仔煎,味道不变,我们却又如何?

Envoy of the Stars @ 12:56 AM
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Happiness is..

Thursday, June 14, 2007

When my friend found a new friend.


Envoy of the Stars @ 1:32 PM
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定风波

Sunday, June 10, 2007

最近对生活又有了些感悟。以往学苏轼的《定风波》,总是惊叹于他的神来之笔与意味深长,却并不了解那种情感。毕竟那是生活经验累积的智慧结晶。

如今,还是不能完全体会,只能浅尝。同样是那句说了又说,念了又念的“也无风雨也无晴”,现在才总算念到心坎上。我想,到了宠辱皆忘的时候,逆来尚可顺受,甚至已对一切不很在乎时,管它是休假也好,工作也罢,是怎样就怎么办。

因为无所谓,也就无所畏。

至少,我还很享受这种cloudless weather。

Envoy of the Stars @ 8:36 PM
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Origin

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Having stepped back into S*SP^C really brought back those memories of the mad rush and "mayhem" then. This same place I was so familiar with for those three months last year, yet the same premises I have grown so alienated from. I was there to supposedly be instructor for a bunch of NCC cadets attending their spec course (yeah like thanks, theirs last 4 days, ours... 6 months) but in the end I became more like a babysitter, shepherding them from one place to another.

Basically there was nothing much to do, because they had their own CLTs to sort out the admin and carry out the training, so my friends and I basically followed the motion, taking a group each. It was weird taking NCC people when firstly, I was from NPCC and secondly, it's just different between taking charge of students and unit guys. But I must say it was fun, though tiring. Being constantly bombarded by their enthusiasm (or maybe it's just them trying to act in front of me, ok.. being cynical) and over-flowing questions. "Sir, where's your camp?", "Sir, what do you do?" (something I myself am trying to find out with each new day), "Sir, how long is your course? What did you all go through?".... Asking about this and that, here and there, but somehow you just can't seem to pull a long face to stop their constant enquiries. Ya, they sure are a cute batch, and super funny too. I was testing them on target indication where they were supposed to shout a simple command to point out the target to their make-believe comrades, but some of them can give me really lengthy descriptions almost as though they are taking picture description for oral exam...

Interacting with these adolescents made me feel so old... I calculated they still have at least 4 to 5 years before they enlist. Although we both wear green, we are on totally different platforms. They cannot be punished physically, they can laugh and joke with their superiors at the risk of only a scolding at most, and they still aren't conscious of many things, intangible stuff like choice, life, safety, responsibility. At least, most still are not. But it's only normal, and the right time will come. Until then, they can merely pump me for stories regarding A-organisation, and I couldn't even bear to tell them the ugly sides of things. They are just too young, full of high aspirations, waiting to be impressed, with an excess amount of testosterones found in pubescent boys. (they can talk about nothing but their own female CLT when they are in their bunks... "a rose among the thorns, with an angelic smile that can brighten up my day", exact words I heard from my friend's account) Strangely enough, I actually felt slightly sad to see them go at the end of the course.

Probably, in life we start out from one point and reunite with that point sometime later in our paths. Change is imminent. But at least we have another chance to take another shot from that origin, and kick off a new start.

Envoy of the Stars @ 9:40 PM
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Cadence

Friday, June 01, 2007


Finally completed. The actual date of completion was earlier this week but I never thought of uploading the picture until now... I guess it signifies a sort of ending to the extension of Taiwan Trip back in 2004, since I have only finished this thing now, which is like so overdue. I hope I don't forget to do some things I have promised to do. Do remind me if I owe you anything. (although whether I will act blur is another thing)

Since this entry is already centred on the puzzle, (well it is if you have not noticed...) I must add that I first saw it when I took my piano practical exam in a music school many years ago. My first love at first sight. Lol... It was hung on this wall beside the room I was supposed to enter for the exams. I guess the inspiration and awe it gave me lasted quite long.

Like the term cadence1 suggests in classical music terms, I hope the end of this phrase will signify a much better one coming after it. And a last shoutout to those kind souls from the class, a big thank you to all of you.

1. The ending of a musical phrase, and the common melodic or harmonic formulas that make the ear recognize such an ending

Envoy of the Stars @ 11:54 PM
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寂月

刚才在楼下散步时偶然发现今天竟又是个月圆夜。淡淡的光环,就这样罩住我,不知不觉地,竟对那晕黄着迷了,久久不能把视线移开。流水般柔和的天光,与操场聚光灯的强烈白光、走廊上斜斜照来的橙黄色灯光纵横交错,原来美感就是如此。

天边玉楼一户人

地下夜城万家灯

遥思姮娥多寂寥

眼见孤客几曾少?

往事正伤影驻足

唯独空折枝

风再刮、声未发

何时又要葬落花

Envoy of the Stars @ 1:52 AM
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