Monday, April 30, 2007

回了一趟学校。不知这算是"n+1"次,抑或是最后的第几次。由于感性的细胞像突如其来的海啸般作祟肆虐,在踏入那熟悉的院子时所感受到的是对物是人非过敏而引起的莫名惆怅。

“青山依旧在,几度夕阳红。”

看到Ms Wong,的确是好久不见,但谈话也是止于寒暄,但我想和她以华语交谈的,也只有我们班的人了。这次是陪子谦去找林老师的,当然也存着私心。上次本想在A水准放榜时回去,却错过了。余老师退休后,林老师也要相继退休。我只是在想,往后回校的理由又少了一个。不过两人和他聊天吃饭,还蛮畅快的。或许,如果时间允许,我还会陪同子谦上林老师教的择日学课程,多学一些总是不错。懂的东西越多,越发现自己不懂的更多。这就是学而知不足。与君一席话,胜读十年书。这就是我个人在庸庸碌碌的军中生活中仍能补偿精神上匮乏的方法了。偶尔的intellectual talk,迟到却好过没到的精神救赎。真有久旱逢甘霖的感触,同时再度唤醒了“三日不读书,面目可憎”的上进心理。

学、 修、积,且以勤为本。余将牢记。

别,即不要,亦指再见。两种意思,却使用同一个手势传达的。我想我也是向那么多的曾经这样挥手过。

子谦与我的一段谈话:

“我认为谋事在人,成事在天。我相信天时、地势、人道。虽然天决定成功与否,但人若没有试,不就根本没机会。”

看来你又悟到了不少。”

“人的相遇取于缘份,缘乃天定,份却是人为。像是我可以和这些路人有缘相见,是命运安排的,但不见得我会和他们来往。因为我们没有走进彼此的生活,影响到彼此,所以无份。”

“嗯。所以份才有个人字旁吧。”

Envoy of the Stars @ 10:22 PM
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Jet Set

Sunday, April 29, 2007

There was a documentary show called "Jet set" I used to watch on ch 5 and it always sets out to make viewers green with envy by showing the most expensive hotels, holidays and even toilets in the world. Those are the moments when one will naturally wish to be rich, dirt rich.

But I guess I won't aim that high, nor would I want to. After checking out so many different locations for our ORD trip, with countries ranging from China, Italy, Turkey and Japan, it came as an unexpected conclusion when we hit on Greece, which was totally out of the blue. Noone even thought of that place, but the idea coupled with the itinery met a resounding success in terms of vote. Yi Meng still prioritised China but he was interested in Greece too, Leon was on, I was reminded of the magical aura in that place I used to read from books or watch from shows and incidentally, I had wanted to visit there quite long ago, just not that soon, Teo was the one who thrusted the itinery in front of us. Yi Meng even attempted that it's a small compromise for me since there is a "mini Venice" in Mykonos, an island off Greece. (Yi Meng's idea of a cold joke)

If this is confirmed, our magical journey to Greece will be in sight.


All that is, if everyone of us can fork out the cost for such a trip... Talk about dreams and reality. Ah well, we still have a backup plan to fall back on anyway, and plenty of time to consolidate or plans.

Envoy of the Stars @ 11:12 PM
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大江东去,十年一梦

Saturday, April 21, 2007

从小到大,四方盒的戏剧集感觉和我有点无缘,碰巧邂逅了的,有的如正式交往前看了一会儿就觉得不适合或意见分歧而分手了,少数的却能够陪伴着我一直到最后。然而像后者一类,在我十多年电视生涯中,仍是屈指可数,尽管播映过的连续剧却如恒河沙数。

最近偶然看到《东游记》的重播,不禁有点今非昔比的感慨。或许,白先勇的《台北人》还在不遗余力地影响着我吧?发现电视主题曲其实一直根植在脑海中,是那么神妙的潜移默化作用,如果当时课堂上的琅琅书声能够同样铭记于心的话,成绩要名列前茅应该会比休息时间排队买食物还容易吧。“走啊走啊走,好汉跟我一起走... ...” 轻声哼起,旁边一定有人仿佛深怕别人不知道他是好汉似的跟着加入,感觉有点像是被我牵着鼻子走,唱得还真是精准。不久不同韵调音准的声音纷至沓来,不能说是相得益彰,勉强也能相映成趣,变成大合唱。看来人云亦云有时也能体现团结力量大的精神。

不知为何,小时看的电视剧回忆起来尤其隽永,可能当时的我们太空闲了,所以脑袋用来装些有的没的,一些故事情节居然记得比LCD荧幕画面还清楚。

随便提个“火神”,十个人中就有九个会立刻想到当年周初明的炎发酷造型(顺道说一下,那部剧叫《再见封神榜》),而这些,就叫做记忆。当然,对属于我和我朋友年代(听起来好像很老) 的,也可叫做童年。

Envoy of the Stars @ 5:28 PM
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Lull

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Currently having a lull period so the past week and the coming one will be spent lazing around. It's true one gets more lethargic when you accumulate too much sleep, and you most probably end up being unable to sleep at night too... You just get more nua. Oops pardon the colloquial term. But I think it is quite apt to put the current state of my bunk mates and I. Before I get stemmed down by those who haven't had a good sleep for very long time, better move on.

Watched a concert playing animation music with OPX gang today, a "major" outing for this clique of mine since last august, where more people are present. (Yes a concert! I couldn't believe it) The funniest thing was Kang Hao was the earliest! We were utterly lost for words. I think the scenario is just short of the press coming to make a report and air it on prime time news. Had good laughs while making jibs at the rather substandard (ok actually its still average) performance of the ensemble (considering the location was the esplanade) and prototype plans for our upcoming Tibet trip. (hopefully we can successfully hold it, since we failed three times after promising to go on an overseas trip after 1. O lvls 2. A lvls 3. Before enlistment... Sheesh..)

I so want to go overseas!!! Zhehan and me were talking about having overseas trip after THE big day and we were planning to go Europe... Yes I have longed to visit there since the last trip to Bremen where I missed out on all the sightseeing due to our prior objective of the competition. Of course, we thought of china and australia too as alternatives. And I suggested roping in Xiaobai and Yi meng, so if YOU TWO ARE READING THIS give me your views ok!! Of course anyone interested in joining us can apply. (I sound like some advertisement)

As I am forced to clear off this week on thursday and friday, I guess might as well take this chance to go out, although I know it's bad timing for some. Looking for people!! I miss k-ing quite abit..

Envoy of the Stars @ 11:15 PM
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男人女人

很久以前就想介绍这首陈奕迅的歌了。它的前身粤语版《富士山下》让我一听就爱。这个版本换了林夕的词,委婉透着豁达,讽刺夹杂体谅,都市男女的分合悲喜、寻寻觅觅,道出的是爱情的千回百转,千丝万缕,纠结缠绵。

男人女人的爱情可以很复杂,很单纯,可以轰轰烈烈,可以细水长流,可以地老天荒,也可以天天更换。爱的存在其实很抽象,存在的证据也许是眼泪与记忆,也许是笑靥与挂念,也许是你知我知的共通心。世界大同化,人们对迁徙移居不再陌生,情感的归属也飘泊不定。“昨日黄土陇里埋白骨,今日红梢帐底卧鸳鸯”。

激情降温,浪漫搁浅,青春烧尽,容颜半老,华发早生,这时才觉悟一生追逐,可能只是简单的互相关照与幸福,两个心灵共同的定所。

《爱情转移》

徘徊过多少橱窗住过多少旅馆
才会觉得分离也并不冤枉
感情是用来浏览还是用来珍藏
好让日子天天都过得难忘
熬过了多久患难湿了多长眼眶
才能知道伤感是爱的遗产
流浪几张双人床换过几次信仰
才让戒指义无返顾的交换
把一个人的温暖转移到另一个的胸膛
让上次犯的错反省出梦想
每个人都是这样享受过提心吊胆
才拒绝做爱情待罪的羔羊
回忆是捉不到的月光握紧就变黑暗
等虚假的背影消失于晴朗
阳光在身上流转等所有业障被原谅
爱情不停站想开往地老天荒
需要多勇敢

烛光照亮了晚餐照不出个答案
恋爱不是温馨的请客吃饭
床单上铺满花瓣拥抱让它成长
太拥挤就开到了别的土壤
感情需要人接班接近换来期望
期望带来失望的恶性循环
短暂的总是浪漫漫长总会不满
烧完美好青春换一个老伴

你不要失望荡气回肠是为了
最美的平凡

Envoy of the Stars @ 2:02 AM
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The pile of ashes

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Yesterday I saw a rather nostalgic scene at the guard house: the new enlistees from the other unit sharing the same premises as mine were singing aloud songs that I have not heard since almost one year ago, lining up in front of the main gate waiting to be released from the clutches of their superiors. The sight of them clutching their field packs, their resounding chorus of "yes" or "no" to every question given to them, the anxious and eager looks as though the gates of heaven were beckoning towards them and the gate IC sure seemed like St Peters as they filed out the main gate in the orderly fashion only recruits will display.

My friend was casually commenting how fast time passed as he too relived fragments of those one-year old memories. Much as I would have liked to express my nonchalance over such a remark, but such occasional backward glaces do give you that feeling. Just this time one year ago we were like really burning ourselves out, struggling to get by day after day. But I have not forgotten the things I took away.

"However long something might seem to one, time will bring it nearer. However far it seems, as long as one continue walking towards it, one will reach it. Over may take a very long time, but nothing can escape being a passe."

Thus the phoenix will rise from the ashes this november, and hopefully get to fly to other parts of the world just to reestablish my touch with civilisation. My workplace is driving me nuts. Everyone seems so desperate that a picture of Felicia Chin in green uniform can cause so much discussion... I don't understand the fuss. But like my friend put it, "When you are stuck in an environment five days a week, there's nothing much worth noticing already..." Talk about state of deprivation. I find it to be taking a toll on my intellect more than other things. But that said, let me introduce a new girl I met.





Of course this entry is supposed to be casual. To all cliff-hangers (which ever cliff you are hanging to now, academics, life, relationship, bad hair day... ) keep holding on even if it looks like you are scaling Mt Everest now and the worst will be over soon....

Provided a response team is at the beck of your call and you don't cut yourself loose.

Envoy of the Stars @ 2:24 PM
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都市男女

Friday, April 06, 2007

无意中看了几集“恋爱时代”,居然把不爱看韩剧的我给吸引了。虽然原因是有点偏心的,因为一直以来在韩星中就最喜欢孙艺珍。那是自从看了她演出的几部韩剧开始的事。看过她与车太贤主演凄凄惨惨戚戚的爱情片,从楚楚可怜的小女人到报复丈夫背叛而和裴勇俊偷情的情妇,都市女人的爱恨情愁,她演来总是丝丝入扣。至少对我来说是如此。

友人竟然跟我提出了有点独辟蹊径的言论。

“我觉得男女应该保持一定的距离,即使走在一起。”

“那就是说即使结了婚后,最好也是聚少离多,或分房睡,分开住喽?”

他居然说可能,因为他相信如果不那么常见面,会保持新鲜感,发生口角的机会就少了。Absence makes the heart grows fonder? 为了拯救友人这种外星人说法,(他还考虑结集成书)我尝试开导。

“其实吵架也有点像炒菜嘛?如果没有火和油,菜不久就凉了,哪里炒得起来?男女到了不能吵架的地步,就是没戏唱,对对方毫无兴趣,感情冷却了,还谈什么爱情?”

Envoy of the Stars @ 9:08 PM
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Enjoyment

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Nothing beats having free time and knowing how to make full use of it. Apart from having the time, the people who are available to keep you company will be the deciding factor whether that time will be well spent or not, to me at least. Especially when everyone around you seems to be busying with their own things and you end up thinking if you have been forgotten or maybe you are just the one with a lot of spare time in your hands.

Whatever it is, I didn't regret taking a day off today. Had coffee with Zhehan yesterday night and talked about the same old things. I realise I go for such sessions with different people, but the feeling is always comfortable and at ease.

"Mr Bean the holidays" was insanely funny, although much of it is just slapstick humour. But I think the working crew got the recipe that dates back to the last Bean movie in 1997 right again. The ingredients are all present, with the correct dose of comic disasters and heartwarming bits. A good recommendation for those who want to have a good laugh after quite a while. (the recent brand of spoof movies aren't that funny or satirical they were touted to be)

Thereafter I went to watch Evan Yo's 蔡旻佑 live music session with sis. He delivered his performance with reasonable oomph and zeal, responding to well reception from the floor. All in all, he belted out the few popular songs from his album, like 《我可以》,《我想要说》and《城外》. His singing live sounds as good as his album. Not bad.

And so I am going to enjoy this period of rest and recovery for as long as it lasts.

Envoy of the Stars @ 9:16 PM
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再见。优客李林

Sunday, April 01, 2007

有意外。第一:票是赢来的;我妹参加抽奖的运气总是不错,但她自己却不那么想看,所以陪我看优客的是老爸。第二:原来我居然懂得那么多他们的歌。第三:这个演唱会是我看过的最感动我的,真的让我请不自禁想挥动“手机荧光棒”,伴着两人的悠扬歌声。

坦白说,并不是很认识他们。一直到今天,我才知道林固然是林志炫,李却是李骥,而他们两个居然很风趣,比其他歌手感觉轻松多了,真诚多了,贴近观众多了。(虽然一半原因是位置太靠近舞台,还近距离看了林志炫)

他们的歌,很男人,很粗犷,很细腻,很温柔,很激动,虽然林的声线是高八度的清晰,但李的却是粗中带厚度,所以才有优客李林的完美。

《少年游》、《黄丝带》、《for you》、《不知所措》、《输了你赢了世界又如何》、《认错》、《单身情歌》,首首动听美声乐曲,勾起回忆,把感动移植到现在。

特别偏爱林志炫的独唱部分,尤其是那首《说不出的告别》。

我说服我自己没有我你会更顺心

可能你已经云淡风轻当我是个曾经

是不甘心还是依然爱着你

在告别之后让它随风去(记得我曾经那么爱着你)”

李骥的部分是真情的剖白,不管是写给母亲的"Love you forever more",还是对于一段八年感情的逝去写的《十分之一》。尤其后者的词,委婉中透着幽幽的哀伤。

“告别你其实等于告别自己十分之一生的理想

又要沈浮在爱情世界里的大风大浪

所以请你不要真的忘记我的模样

毕竟曾经把最好的留给对方”

同时也留意到有些歌名蛮有创意的,像《有些女人不能碰》、《多情种》、《等待是最初的苍老》等。

是多年后的再见,亦是这次告别式的再见。

多一次见面,不也就相等于多一此告别。

Envoy of the Stars @ 12:30 AM
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