我不配

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

这夜色也太黑

看不清你是谁

适合劳燕分飞的季节是否太美

喝一口冰咖啡

淡得有点伤胃

时间留点给谁

客套话太狼狈

还来不及

仔仔细细选择如何逃避

那是我没有勇气

还是你太过安静

你要的我不能给

所以我在后退

一些些逼迫还有点余威

我后悔

遇见你是我不对我承认我有罪

是我风度装得有点疲惫

这感觉已经不对该如何才妥协

你眼神那藏不住的轻蔑 也太绝

你不过为工作向我亮刀讨小费

而我口袋连零钱也没

我不配 （被你抢劫。真的。）

Envoy of the Stars @ 10:54 PM
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生意

Friday, April 25, 2008

何谓生意？

生存的意义。

生机和新意。

生活那意思。

说到底，就是生生不息地贩卖一种

人际关系。

Envoy of the Stars @ 1:41 PM
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Lions for Lambs

Thursday, April 24, 2008

It was a long overdue title I wanted to watch since last year. The trailer was intriguing and kept me deeply rooted in my seat in the cinemas, and I knew the reason was not because I was part of Organisation A and hence makes it justifiable to be able to empathise with the theme being brought out in the movie. The repetitive questions appear once again: whether there is the need to fight violence with violence? Is the choice to play on the offensive side as a rule of engagement between countries necessarily beneficial? Certain issues were openly discussed too, such as the decision to continue adopting a policy of apathy or getting involved in politics in the hope of changing it from within, and the age-old debate over the morality issue of sacrificing lives for the sake of a greater cause: a nation's pride and the security of her people.

Synopsis

Three stories told simultaneous in ninety minutes of real time: a Republican Senator who's a presidential hopeful gives an hour-long interview to a skeptical television reporter, detailing a new strategy for victory in Afghanistan; two special forces soldiers ambushed on an Afghani ridge await rescue as Taliban forces close in; a poli-sci professor at a California college invites a promising student to re-engage. Decisions press upon the reporter, the student, and the soldiers. The two soldiers were originally students of the professor who willingly made the decision to enlist and participate in the battle in Afghan and as they fight for survival in the field, they become the line that binds the other two stories together.

Great acting, a neatly carved out plot and much food for thought.

Quotes from Lions for Lambs:

"So you think it's better to try and fail than to fail and try?"
"Yes."
"But what is the difference if you end up in the same place."
"At least you did something."

If you don't stand for something, you might fall for everything.

Envoy of the Stars @ 7:17 PM
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On Sharing

Monday, April 21, 2008

We live in a world promoting freedom of expression and emphasising while encouraging the display of personality. The fact that the majority of us who own computers spend at least 60% of our daily lives talking to them and making sure our 'relationships' do not go haywire tells alot about our reliance on these supposed tools we initially invented to lighten our load and alleviate our problems. I am not going to talk about how we are slowly subjecting ourselves to enslavery and servitude under the increasing pressure of computers. Let's go to one thing the internet and the computer has brought us: file sharing. We just need a few big incidents like the accidental leakage of a private bedroom photo collection, or the tremendous success of yo*tube to tell us how much we still yearn to connect with the rest of the world even if you get holed up in front of the computer at home.

Sharing, ironically, is so generously carried out in cyberspace that one might feel it is a selfless act of care. We make the effort to upload videos we source from other sites, or contribute music videos or movies from our own CD stash, even to the extent of going the extra mile to make sure the quality of the files we have uploaded do not differ too much from the original. Such a helpful spirit, if channelled to reality and work, would probably be revolutionary in terms of the number of workplace miracles that will result from all this amount of positive energy. But until then, we will just continue to enjoy basking in the free, pleasurable sharing environment created in the very heart of cyberspace.

In reality, we all share a common hobby though: we are collecting problems everyday, and this is a collection that will never end.

On a side note, I received this comment that made me feel, helpless...

"Oh Mr Tan are you from China?"

"No I am Singaporean."

"Why is your chinese so good?"

*pauses*

"I can speak english too."

"Omg more english coming from you!"

"..."

I couldn't really decide whether I was feeling more nonchalant or irritated by such stereotypical, unjustified, irksome fallacies.. But once again it probably proves that billingualism isn't that much of a strength we can boast of ,when we disprove it among ourselves.

Envoy of the Stars @ 10:57 AM
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1、2、3我们都是木头人

Sunday, April 20, 2008

序曲：

两年前，当兵前，一切似乎太美丽。

经历了，洗练了，其实只都是过去。

一样是陶喆演唱会，那份感觉，

却像那首《无缘》所言永远与之失之交臂。

突破：

改变，是心境在改变，是世界在变迁

我们的生活是所有改变的缩影，也是改变所有的原因。

一长串曲目，歌舞剧般的呈现。很热闹，却暖化不了冻结的记忆。

依然欣赏独特的编曲，非一般的演唱。

哼几句《爱很简单》，但欠缺找不到的情感，只能《找自己》。

或许应该学唱《就是爱你》，却不知能唱给谁听。

所以，就只能静静地听，《Susan说》。

我们不都是木头人，表面上可能是，但木头也会沧桑，也会成长，都只是在等待和煦的阳光和清凉的风，治愈那麻木的心。

漏网遗珠：

太多。

《似曾相似》
《流沙》
《蝴蝶》

有缺憾，也许就有待续吧。

Envoy of the Stars @ 12:10 AM
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大头贴

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

无意间翻开报纸，其中有篇报道讲到：大头贴在新加坡已出现了十年了。

十年前，是有开始拍大头贴的记录，证据至今还保存得很完整。那时小学五、 六年级左右，放学过后偶尔会和几个同班同学兼同伴去附近旧家楼下的书局拍大头贴，因为那里居然装置了一台大头贴机器。虽然跟现在技术先进，款式花样百出的大头贴机器相比自不可同日而语，但那毕竟是年少的见证。

晃眼间，学生时期也暂时告一段落了，拍过的大头贴算一算，还真不少。当然，十年内有四年的中学时期是空白点，毕竟一群男生聚在一块是很少会想到拍大头贴的。不过，每张大头贴中的笑脸，多少道出了友情的点点。至少在当下。

是的，我们也曾那样，摆出千奇百怪的甫士，装出怪异的表情，看着满是日文的荧光屏，似懂非懂地尽情涂鸦，挥洒青春。

Envoy of the Stars @ 8:25 PM
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On Image

Sunday, April 06, 2008

Image is something people look to for a first impression, perhaps even a lasting one. It is hardly surprising that people conceive and portray different images at different times then, to fit the bill, or to keep in line.

But it becomes a pain when the image is something involuntarily thrusted to one using a rather diplomatic form of entrustment. Upholding the image becomes a responsibility, to the extent you feel you have just been handed yet another mask to put on. (If life has not already burdened you with enough.. but of course, it is a personal choice to wear them..)

And certain masks, when worn, can either make you feel like a clown or give you this false sense of nobility. The difficult thing sets in when you are required to perform the role befitting that of your new image, and the many ensuing demands that have until now stay hidden start to kick in before you start realising what you have landed yourself in. And you start questioning if it is actually worthwhile shouldering all this burden and responsibility on top of the work you rightfully have to complete.

So is image an asset of a liability? We should all probably start to weigh the advantages and disadvantages now, economically, since that is the only way of measuring things in tangible returns..

Envoy of the Stars @ 10:54 PM
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