褪色

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

这几天为了准备重新油漆，家中两老在整理着衣橱的东西，搜出了许多陈年旧物，满满装了几个纸箱，感觉不只是从橱柜，更像是从记忆仓库中挖出的时间胶囊。

偶然瞥到房间墙角放着一小叠没被收去的照片，定睛一看发现是一张张熟悉又陌生的脸：就是两老年轻时的留影。虽然不是没看过他们年轻的样子，但一次过放着这么多，还真有些不习惯，不习惯这些定格中没有我、没有妹妹、也没有熟悉的他们。随手翻看时，好像感觉到脸部肌肉稍微放松了，但那是什么表情，我并不知道。能肯定的是，那应该是很有趣的表情。

照片泛黄的颜色，是岁月的延伸，一直到渗入我指尖当下这刻，才发现触碰到了一种传承。照片中的人和眼前的人，不能说是同样的人，但却同样默默地以自己的韶华换来孩子的成长。只是，相片已褪色，心中则多了些色彩。

Envoy of the Stars @ 7:34 PM
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惜雨

Friday, November 20, 2009

天幕缓闭

给大地打的灯也被收去

接踵而来的雨滴

落在眼前落入眼里

在两个世界激起涟漪

落叶飘飞满天星

闭上眼睛

试着仰望三月樱花景

只怕想象不解风情

熙来攘往的鼻息

在雨声中藏匿

隐隐约约

人的感性

却变得很透明

就这样在湿冷的路上踏着凉意

用着属于自己微热的心灵

Envoy of the Stars @ 12:57 AM
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别太在意

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

定风波领悟到哪里

无雨无晴是什么天气

满意要累积

缘分愿待续

就这样放任许多沉溺

得了这东西

多了些叹息

松手前战战兢兢怕失去

马不停蹄明白事故和道理

哪天发现忠于自己原来不容易

都为各自目的准备死而后已

却忘了给不如意留一个余地

随着年岁阅历把忙碌失败收齐

谁会很熟悉这种不知所以

才对自己说句别太在意

Envoy of the Stars @ 10:01 PM
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Thursday, November 05, 2009

"The Sister's Keeper" is one of those shows not meant for the emotionally sensitive, for the simple reason that it will polarise existing sentimentality to overwhelming consequences, as demonstrated by the female audience around me. However I do find certain parts of the show heart-wrenching, especially the family warmth depicted in the show. But what intrigued me was not the storyline, the riveting scenes or the kaleidoscope of emotions overflowing the screens but the difference in family dynamics in an alternate culture. Maybe it is the current load that I am studying now but it made me notice the nuances in western family upbringing and parenting as portrayed in the movie, compared to the Asian setting I am more accustomed to. The emphasis on encouraging the child to express their feelings and thoughts through discussions, reasoning to come to a common understanding is ever present. Parents provide a kind of scaffolding and support their children's efforts without deliberate instructions.

With things like the "we-said-she-gets-a-table-and-she-should-be-allowed-to-speak" treatment, the verbal iteration of "I am always there for you" and "I love you", the physical intimacy in daily interactions like sharing of hugs and kisses, I can safely say these are practices in parental-child relationships that most Asian families will not be familiar with. Of course, just attributing our difference to the oversimplification of social norms such as the likes of "conservatism" and "Asian values" hardly do ourselves justice, but environment does play a big part in social perceptions, and that is possibly why I thought the movie was interesting not just for the explorations of love and understanding in kinship, but for observations of a family structure in a western context.

I guess I just need some mindless movie that will not remind me of work, or maybe drawing references to what I have learnt in real life has become a sort of automatic process...

Envoy of the Stars @ 10:38 PM
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