生活

Sunday, August 27, 2006

在等巴士时，突然听到身旁的阿婆低声说了些什么，不禁转过头， 以为她要对我说什么。

她笑了笑，开始和我说话。不，应该说是她在说，我在听。

三言两语，她说得少，但看得仿佛很多，所以到后来，只是轻轻叹息了一声，然后又笑了笑。

始终沉默的我，只报以那，若有所悟的浅笑。

Envoy of the Stars @ 5:18 PM
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Click

Friday, August 18, 2006

Spent these few days of precious leave alone, quietly and peacefully. Sometimes, we all should learn to spend time with ourselves.

Watched "Click" today. If life can be controlled by a remote, would we relive those moments valuable to us, fast-forward those moments of triviality and self-perceived insignificance, and dive into the chapters we have been longing for immediately? The movie is touching and heart-warming, although it still plays on the old theme of work and family. But it has a specialised touch that sort of revitalises this issue that has been used over and over again. Apart from the introduction of the fictional presence of the remote control that can control the owner's universe, the delicately-handled scenes of transition as the protagonist literally browses through his life chapters, from the micro details such as the technological advances of the world to the emotional roller-coaster ride the protagonist was brought through, were also commendable.

The show concluded by stressing the importance of living every moment and cherishing things like family and ties. Quite a good wake-up call for the average white-collar man.

Now I don't even know if I will fast-forward my life till my ORD date. I might just miss out some things. Whether good or bad, at least I am still breathing, and I will make sure I see through the remaining 1 year 3 months.

也许
数个月缺月圆后
世间故我

我仍带着
满肚子的不合时宜
怀抱上世纪的精彩
漂移

Envoy of the Stars @ 9:10 PM
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一路上

Saturday, August 12, 2006

在这难熬的几个月，都有你们陪我一起

一起下地狱

然后享受天堂的片刻安宁

痛苦我们一同经历

只因命运偏偏叫我们在这里相遇

我真想说声谢谢你

在这些日子的每一天

让我了解

什么叫做气到吐血

什么却又叫做笑到脚朝天

做guard duty时看到你们走出营

不忘回头笑

我也有点歌给你们的冲动

很好听的一首

《王八蛋》

累到走不动你就满口脏话

半推半拉

让我从倒下的地方站起

自己却好不到哪里去

连喘气都没力

为什么你就是不学着放弃

害我不知道什么叫逃避

我们对彼此的关心

多一点也很恶心

所以才会选择笑骂中成长

你让我发现

男人间的交情

不是只有喝酒、下棋、谈女人

虽然这已占据大部分

但我们仍会在街上偶尔碰见

才惊觉并没有在彼此世界消失

那么偶然

就像初次见面

那种微笑

Envoy of the Stars @ 2:26 PM
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In camp...

Friday, August 11, 2006

X just ended a call with his girlfriend and was slightly huffing as he told us about his girlfriend taking part in some speed-dating activity organised by her university.

"So what is speed-dating ah?"
"Er... just trying to know more people in quick time, perhaps?"
"Will they hold hands or something?"
"Well, I guess that depends on her, isn't it?"
"She says he is going out with this guy leh."
"Oh."
"(Jokingly) Ok I want his NRIC, rank and name..."
"..."
"Eh kokhong tomorrow go prepare armskote, I drawing arms at 7..."
"RIGHT."

Envoy of the Stars @ 9:36 PM
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Fallen?

Sunday, August 06, 2006


Came across Spiderman 3's trailer and it was absolutely cool. Can't wait for may 2007 (nearer to ORD too). But the theme for the movie is clearly about darkness within, since Venom has finally appeared.

"How long can any man live with the darkness before he finds it in himself?"

The trailer headings screamed.

Indeed. How long more?

Envoy of the Stars @ 6:07 PM
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曲终人散

今天去了余氏会馆，人虽然不多，食物却不少，但最重要的是，在场的人带去的情谊，相信余老师是感受得到的。至少，我看到他看着我们打牌、唱K时，他面上也是带着微笑的。所以，突然间，带去那里的东西也就变得多了。

看到了一些熟悉的面孔，当然也有几张陌生的，都是前几届的LEP学生。对桃李满天下的余老，本是不足为奇，偏偏这下子就奇了，奇在来的也只是不多过20人。或许，我们都太忙了。

我总是觉得对教过我的老师有所亏欠，尤其是华文老师。有些我曾不加理会，有些我特别喜欢，但十九岁的我才发现，他们都被我记牢了。偶尔脑中还会闪过那若是能洗成相片肯定也已泛黄的课堂情景，他们一个个的面孔、声音，还是清晰的。每个老师或多或少都会教到“饮水思源”，我也接触了十年的饮水思源。很庆幸，尽管忘却了他们交过我的考A秘诀、作文技巧、口试应战策略等，这句我却忘不了。但，我还是没多大机会看到他们了。多数已退休、准备回国、不知踪影，所以对于LEP那几个老师，我觉得可能是这负疚感让我觉得应该更珍惜他们，让我把我不曾对过往老师说过的话，都说给了他们听，把未曾说出的告别，都抓紧机会说了。如今，连他们也快要一一告别了。

突然想到一点，教过我后的老师好像在教育界都待不过五年。真是罪过。

我走时丢下了一句“老师保重了，过些时候再去（学校）看你”，他也送了我一句狠话“要来今年来，明年一月二号没人记得你了。记得，一月二号。”歪了头想了想。对，一月二号。人去楼空，回首再听，一片烟雨飘摇。

我不否认我对这聚会出席人数的少是有些感慨的，还是清华一句：“何必伤感，这对他（余老）是种解脱嘛。”我才恍然。人生的讽刺也未免太大了吧。你是否也听出了什么?

是啊，解脱嘛。

我仿佛还听到唱过的最后一首曲目的最后音符。

Envoy of the Stars @ 12:21 AM
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