Avalon

Hmmpf...

Friday, October 08, 2004

I have a million thoughts running through my mind at this very second. Just a few hours ago, back when I was doing that disgustingly outrageous LEP paper, I recall that I was thinking at a rate of 10 thoughts/points a second. The mind was working with such fervour and speed that there was a communication breakdown with my hands. It is like thoughs were flashing and streaking across like meteorites (pardon me for the lousy example) but this only serve to amplify the agony and affliction I am being put through now and just now. It is not a nice feeling when you suddenly come across such a brilliant point you thought you were a genius and then suddenly, it just cunningly performs a disappearing act and hides in a corner in your brain. You are fully aware that it is lurking somewhere in that vastness emptiness up there in an unknown region and you also know that you can retrieve it only if you can stop and think (and I mean think clearly, with the emphasis on clearly obviously) carefully then maybe you can "recover a lost document" and strike gold.

But wait. Have you not forgotten that there is something called time. Ah.. now here is the fun part, dripping with the irony of life. I have all the time in the world now to write this entry but at that point in time, I didnt even have time to breathe and feel my fingers threatening to complain to the customised trade union because their welfare is not well look after. Ok the point is I find that my hands could not keep up with my mind that is working like clockwork. Ineffective hand-brain coordination, an internal disEOS so too bad. I just feel my mind buzzing non-stop and I wonder how many brain cells I have killed just to force hours of memorising and internalising into three hours of paper. haha 写了几千多字，都是空话！

Anyway, I didnt feel the relief from exams as predicted. (I mean I was expecting I am going to be tremendously relieved) I attribute this unusual behaviour as a side-effect of overly strenuous utilisation of the brain in writing mindless essays that I dont even think serve a purpose. Well maybe just the grade. Oh my! What did I just say. I have just undergone backward integration by downgrading myself to the level to only keep in mind meer numbers. Haiz... must reflect on this. Please excuse me, I shall take my leave to repent.

Envoy of the Stars @ 10:23 PM
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