Avalon

Prelude to CNY

Saturday, February 05, 2005

Things just continue to get more and more out of hand. So helpless at times that I really wish I can learn 分身术。It's like impossible to be in so many places at one time!! Found myself moving to and fro, practically drifting through the air. I guess I am used to walking rather briskly. Ok maybe too quickly. Time suddenly seemed so much more precious to me. But luckily another week is over. I am caught in this web of irony because I would love to start the count-down to the end of this year but then, the end would signal the commencement of the dreadful parting. Ok shall stop getting my mind clouded with these thoughts. Should make the best out of this year.

Started to think of the questions that I have been shelving aside all these years. What will I become in about 5-10 years' time? (used to be "what aspiration/ambition do you have?" and we had to write compositions.) What the next phase in my life will be like? I still can't believe I am turning 18 in a couple of months'time. 好老哦！And my environment is constantly reminding me that I am not young anymore. My niece has just been enrolled to primary school this year. It's like just yesterday when I heard her wailing and howling when she was three months old.

Anyway, I didn't know why but I actually found myself utterly uncontrollable. Sometimes my mind is clearly disseminating the message that I should just keep my temper down before it flares up. But somehow I don't react accordingly. Must be psycho-motor problem. But then the anger and everything is subdued rather forcefully but not entirely so in the end, it just left me expressionless and somewhat cold. Some people told me that I looked so scary when I don't talk or smile!! Hello I am not Sylvester!! Not the first time I got such feedback though. First impresson really matters so much. Now I have to "be myself" all the time. Ya well ok I am a very outgoing person but you must understand that Geminis have got a character with a complicated personality. So the quiet side of me sets in sometime. I call it the "screen-saver" mode where I will act as though I am in twilight zone. 神游太虚. Haha.

I think Friday was the busiest day of the week. Was like rushing, rushing, rushing all day. Then after Huang Cheng went to eat at KAP with the admin, actors and emcess. Oh ya Ammily and Cailing made a guest appearance and then saw Meixin and Qi Fan on the bus ride to KAP. They are like so suay!!! Big-time 被发现. Zhe Han went up the bus first so they waved and thought he was the only person, only to find out that the rest of us were right behind him. You can imagine their looks of surprise. Haha but then this is no secret anymore so just an interesting incident. Oh then while we were eating, we started another bitching session... Why do we share a common topic!! And it was like the emcees were listening intently. 教坏小孩! Then while we at it, the actors were like doing dares... So "innocent", just like us. When we commented that they were so 天真无邪, I said that actually we were like this too last year. Just that the polish had worn off. We left before the actors, leaving the emcees Justin and Michelle (the young ones) to join them.

Had Senior and Junior outing today finally. After more than two weeks of confirmation and coordination. Must thank Feng Yi (our class CT rep) and Chao Hsiang from junior class. We ate at Fish and Co in the glasshouse and celebrated Jing Yi's birthday. Haha as expected, the whole restaurant were looking at us when we sang the bday song. So AA... then we took photos outside. Can't believe it that we are the seniors now!!! Remembered going there with A13 seniors last year!!! Wow. After that we went shopping. Yi Meng bought two pairs of nice earrings placed in a nice-looking box for his angel, who also happened to be mine. He spent about $18!!! 破坏行情! Now what am I going to get her??? Argh!!! And then he was giving his broad grin when he showed me the box. I thought it was for... but he laughed it off (as usual) and told us jokingly that he would spend less on "her" present. Made me sooo confused. He probably had his own logic behind that.

Envoy of the Stars @ 10:23 PM
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