Avalon

Re-evaluation

Monday, May 01, 2006

If the organisation "A" that I am currently working for have not really made a good attempt at successfully brainwashing me and my peers to assume 100% committment and loyalty to it, I must say it has at least made me realised that life is really not just within your control. We can say "chill out", "take a step back" (sometimes two), "take a breather" in the past when we meet up with a particularly difficult obstacle in our path. But now, everything is given to you, even what you could originally give yourself, including the most basic things. Like arranging your own time, planning out the way you want to do things... There, we don't get all these luxuries (ya some routine can become luxuries overnight, just think about Jap occupation and natural disasters) Take SOC for example, you have no time to tell yourself "hey I can take a break count to 100 then cross the next obstacle", "take my time, everything will be ok." Ya and in the end it will be ko for you. It is do or die. Reality can be this simple actually. It's only when we try to wriggle out of it and find other means to get around it when we find reality complicated.

It's really a good lesson. No more trying to paint a rosy picture in this world. What's the point in self-deception. So I guess I don't make things sound positive, not that I am pessimistic, not that there is not a shred of goodness in them, but that I rather swallow up all the nastiness, before savouring the sweetness, or whatever is left. Working for rewards, reaping what you sow and equal exchange for everything, even mistakes. Yes boss, don't worry. Underpaid employees though we are, we shall still work for you, because we have no way out, because our contract hasn't ended, because we are living off you, but most importantly, because extreme though your teaching methods are, we have learnt alot.

Envoy of the Stars @ 7:02 PM
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