Avalon

The same old self

Sunday, November 05, 2006

They say there's a cloud in every silver lining. I don't see the clouds often these days but at least the moon looks relatively rounder and brighter last night.

Life continues.

Caught up abit with my old mates this week. Doing the same old stuff. Without fail we dwell on the same old topics. Responsibility. Moral obligation to do the right thing. Coexistance... Thanks to them for listening to me and for sharing their own experiences. Yesterday's outing with the OPX gang was interesting, as usual. We laugh over the same old stupid stuff, repeating and improvising the same old gigs, doing things we won't normally do, and laughing louder than the front row kids while watching "Flushed away". Enjoying the occasional meeting we have, knowing that it will become harder and harder to meet up as time progresses. Its sort of relieving to see we haven't changed much. We still like to crack lame jokes, criticise certain things.... Really loosened me up.

Time is really unfathomable. Last year this time, we are focusing all energies on As, probably stressing at the thought of having to write as much as possible for a paper in the short span of that precious one hour, after which all contents can be poured away unless required. And this year, I will be trapped in an environment that plays a different set of rules. What then of next year? What's waiting in line, apart from getting back the identity we all long for.

有时想想，自怜自伤才是使自己更脆弱的东西。所以我宁可相信我所经历的种种是磨练，是磨不破，练不死我的。至少，我是这么觉得。

“放弃规则放纵去爱
放肆自己放空未来
我不转弯我不转弯”

-五月天《盛夏光年》

Envoy of the Stars @ 1:18 PM
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